Day 361

Today was lots of fun! We enjoyed lots of time just relaxing but I also got fisted and single tail whipped for the first time. Both were awesome experiences! Fisting I'm always a fan of as you most likely know.

The single tail whip I was very excited to try. I've been interested in it for a while. And after being flogged, spanked, caned, etc I figured I would really enjoy it. I can say I sure did enjoy the whipping. I can't say exactly how intense it was for a whipping but it was an wonderful experience. It's different form all of the other impact play experiences I've had. As the whip hit there is a very intense stinging feeling, but soon after it disappeared. While the harder ones stayed longer, it was different in the way that the whip didn't hit as quickly which makes it a very different experience. But in any fashion here is a picture from after the event.

Day 360

So I did it again, another late post. But I'm surrounded by kinky men in gear and there are cocks everywhere how could I not get distracted.

Today was nice though just the usually sleep sacks, mummies, rubber, and lots of cocks to play with. It's wonderful! I have had many questions about my chastity, the reasoning for it, how it works with a boyfriend and a Sir. And I've enjoyed answering all of the questions. Yes it's a bit odd to give up control of my cock for as long as I have but I've so greatly enjoyed it. While yes it does get complicated some days with everything I've got going on, but that's part of the adventure. Rolling with the punches and making it work is what I enjoy doing, and it's the only way to make this work. If I wasn't able to be flexible and work with the changes happening I'd never make it a couple months much less a year.

Day 359

Ah bondage, gear, and sex, it's going to be a wonderful weekend!

Today I arrived at the party and met lots of new people and someone brought a sharpie so Sir's message won't fade away. But I'm not too worried about getting a spanking or two while I'm here.

The night is still young for us only one boy is tied up so unfortunately pictures for the adventure will have to wait until tomorrow.

Day 358

So today was my last spanking from Sir for a few days. But I'll be going to a weekend I bondage and fun in Wisconsin with some friends. So I will have plenty of fun.

But so Sir make sure that I get a few spankings in while I'm up there he decided to make it known that I need to be spanked.

Day 357

Today was good nothing really exciting but I enjoyed that. And I got spanked by a dildo which was interesting but it was fun. It felt weird but it was a good spanking.

Day 356

I can't say that it felt like just yesterday that I stated this chastity adventure, but I can say it doesn't quite feel like it's time for it to be over yet. Not that I'm saying I want it to go for another year before I get out or even another month, but it's odd that it's coming to a close.

I went into this year not exactly sure what I was going to get out of it but it certainly has been a lot of fun and I think I've learned things about myself and others. Some good some not so good, but I can say I wouldn't trade it for anything. It will certainly be a year I remember for a very long time.

Today has been good and a little boring in a good way.

Day 355

Merry Christmas!!  I hope you all had a wonderful day with your friends and family.  I got the chance to spend it with Sir his boyfriend and another one of our friends.  It was a very nice time, but of course just because it was Christmas I didn't get out of anything.  I still got my spankings but my christmas present was Sir just used his hand.  It was a very nice surprise.

I also had my hour of play today which was a lot of fun.  I have this dildo that I enjoy playing with, but I seem to always forget it has a suction cup on it.  Well today I threw it on a chair suctioned nice and tight and enjoyed it for quite a while tonight then got my fingers up my hole a little too!

Day 354

Today was nice and I'm finally feeling like its Christmas. But that's completely unrelated, my spankings are still going and I'll say getting more and more painful.

But it's really nice seeing Sir everyday, it's been a while since we've seen each other this much. Of course it'd be nice to see him under other conditions but I'll take it. It's just nice to chat with him and hang out after my spankings while my ass starts to feel a bit better.

Day 353

Today was good, my chastity was clinking around a little more than normal which was slightly awkward for me at work.  But again people probably just think it's keys in my pocket or something of that nature.  They certainly wouldn't be likely to guess what's really going on, which is kind of fun.

Tonight of course I saw Sir and got my spanking.  It's fun getting all of his different paddles used on me.  While it would be fun to try them out a little more spread out it's enjoyable nonetheless.  They are starting to get more and more interesting as there are old bruises that get hit and added to.  This is what I get and deserve for missing posts though.

Day 352

Today was a day, not really wonderful, but not really terrible overall.  I had my spanking and I didn't think much about my chastity really.  As I've said before it has so much become a part of me I rarely give much thought to it any more unless I'm really horny.

Day 351

Mmmm today was nice I had the day off and could relax a little bit. I didn't spend anytime working myself over but I've been doing plenty of that recent. Plus I had to go over to Sir's to get my spanking for today and take some pictures with him for my boyfriend which turned out to be a lot of fun. My ass is starting to look very nice covered in marks and bruises which Sir is very excited about.

Day 350

Lately I feel like I haven't been putting as much into this blog as I wanted. It's not that I'm not putting some fun stuff on it and putting effort in to it.  I have found though that I want to wait until the end of the day to post and then I get distracted and end up with 20 minutes to post or trying to squeeze it in while I'm out with friends or on a train ride somewhere.  But I'm hoping to try to write some posts earlier in the day and either put them up or save them until I can add things from the whole day.

I also have contemplated writing them and saving them for when I start another blog (or at least I'm planning on it).  With writing my own blog I have started reading many others and really enjoy the topics and information people are putting out there about the kink community and the many intricacies and issues that are out there.  I certainly do not attempt to proclaim I'm an expert, but I think I have a unique perspective.  So after this blog comes to a close at the end of my year of chastity be on the look out for another one from me.

Oh yes and I got my spanking today the 6 plus a couple extras just for good measure. :)

Day 349

So I was driving home today and I had to piss real bad but couldn't stop which isn't usually a problem I've always got a bottle laying around the car.  Of course I've never tried this with a chastity device... But with this device having a central hole where I piss from I figured I could make it work.  I found a bottle in the car and went for it, and surprisingly it worked out well I didn't get a picture of it actually happening, but here's what I had going.

Oh yeah and don't worry I found Sir after I got back and got my beating for the day. He switched it up from the cane and used his favorite rubber paddle which I was not expecting so the first hit definitely shocked me and hurt a little bit more than I expected.  It also feels completely different and made my ass pretty sore but it's feeling better now, but still a little sore. 

Also a friend of mine Sparky posted a very interesting blog post today about pain and developing a tolerance at the NoSafeWord blog. I think there is a lot of truth to it.  I know that I have a very talented Sir who built up my tolerance pretty much as he described in his post.  Without that I know that my punishments that I get (more like the immediate intense hits) would be much worse and less enjoyable (in their own odd way).  But I have to say the build up is a wonderful process that does develop a connection and allows the top to push the bottom to their limits and then some.  I think that the key point brought up is trust.  Trust in my Sir and some of the other people I play with allows me to have an awesome time with spankings, floggings and other forms of impact.  But I'd recommend taking a look at the post it does a much better job of explaining this than I do.

P.S.  I posted the video from yesterday on yesterdays post.

Day 348

Ahh early early this morning (aka last night) I had my Sunday fun and it was amazing!  I was a little nervous about playing with my ass at home because I tend to moan quite a bit, but I kept myself quite with the help of my underwear from yesterday. But I took a short little video (I'm having trouble uploading the video but once I get home I'll get it up) and I think it shows I thoroughly enjoyed myself.

(No the video was not intended to be blurry but my phone didn't focus quite right I think you can still enjoy it.)

Plus here are the results from the hour of playing with my hole.  Yes I know the pictures are a little awkward but so is that terrible angle where I can slip my fist in my hole!

Day 347

Well I didn't hurt too bad today from yesterdays caning.  I definitely felt the marks on me though while driving down to my folks place today.  It was more of a dull constant thing though which was manageable.  The marks still show bright red on my legs though I certainly don't want to be getting a physical for a while or I'll have some awkward questions to answer for the doctor. :)

My chastity as usual is no big deal around my parents it's completely unnoticeable to them.  I do pay a little more attention to the amount of clicking the device does while I'm here because though they wouldn't ask it's something I don't want to worry about them asking about.  But I'm going to be a good boy and play with myself tomorrow because I certainly don't need any more beatings on top of the daily ones I'm already getting now.  I brought all the supplies I should need, lube, dildo and a douche.  Though it doesn't always come through the Boy Scouts did teach me to be prepared!

Day 346

Today was a normal day but oh wow does my ass hurt...  Yeah Sir took out something on my ass and I have the marks to prove it, but positive side is I didn't really think about my chastity all day...but I thought about Sir and my beating for sure!

Day 345

Today was an interesting day. For starters it's home sweet home in the steelheart and it's so nice! It's nice to be back in this device not only is it simpler but it also seems more comfortable. The curve in it just makes it much more...normal like.
But also while I was at Sir's exchange devices he was looking at my device directed me into the play room and put my hands on the spanking bench and gave my ass 6 nice whacks with the cane. Afterwards he said I'll be getting one of those each day until my device comes off...it should be interesting. I know I can take it but it's going to make for a sore month.

Day 344

So today in the shower I realized I have less than a month left!  I don't know how I didn't figure out that yesterday was a month until my release.  I can tell I'm getting pretty horny though which is fine, and should make for a lot of fun coming up.  I know that every day I'm aching to get something in my hole.  I don't usually get around to it with the things going on and having a roommate and such, but I'm planning on doing some damage to my hole tomorrow while I have a little free time and I can't wait!

I do miss having my cock a bit right now.  At one point today I really wanted to just get off really quickly and feel good but I continue to wait.  I'm totally okay with that and enjoy it when I get the chance.

Day 343

So I kind of enjoy being able to see my cock again. I know it's a bit odd but there is something nice about seeing it. While there is also something hot about having the silver there making my cock disappear, I like being able to see it restrained and bursting at the seams of the device. It turns white pushing as hard as it can against the plastic, straining. Little flaps of skin popping out of the air holes on the side that get sore but feels nice as they feel just a little sensation.

Day 342

Today has been a nice day busy enough to keep my mind off of chastity but not so buy that I totally forgot about it. Unfortunately I'm still out with friends and so my picture this evening will have to wait. Trust me I tried to steal a picture in the bathroom but that was a no go unfortunately. I will have to endure the punishment of not posting my picture on time but I will not have my post be late too.

I will be ready to get back in to the steelheart the daily routine is so much easier and it's so much simpler overall.

Day 341

I had a nice little bit of time with my boyfriend before I had to leave for the airport.  I also spent quite a bit time traveling so I just got home in time to post and now I'm about to play with myself before the day is over.  I'll have to post about that tomorrow because I don't have time before the day is up especially since I'll probably get lost in the fun!

But it was nice to have a wonderful weekend with my boyfriend full of rubber and fun.  Today I didn't wear my rubber on the plane, but I did wear my singlet out to brunch before I left. :)

Day 340

Today was fun, I was a bit nervous about it, but I enjoyed it.  I will have to say I didn't think much about my chastity though because I had my rubber shirt on all day.  But I had fun as always when I got to work on my boyfriends cock.  Chastity always makes me focus on whatever cock I get to have fun with, but with my boyfriend it's even a bit more so.

Today in my rubber was nice.  At first I was a bit nervous about wearing it out in public, but I had it on under my hoodie and it was okay.  After about 20 minutes I completely forgot about and though nothing of it.  A couple times It would get cold and I would notice, but it didn't really seem that anyone else did or if they did not a single person said anything.

Day 339

Today was very nice, it was relaxing to begin with and then he got home from work and we had a wonderful time together full of rubber, cock and cum!  Yes he made me cum from fucking me crazy, and it was amazing.  As for the rubber that I wore today, all this morning and afternoon I wore my jock and his catsuit and it was nice.

This evening I continued wearing my jock but only his rubber belt as my visible rubber piece because we had a dance party and really rubber isn't good for that.  But I followed my guidelines to the best of my ability.  Tomorrow I'm thinking my rubber shirt all day!

Day 338

Today I flew in to see the boyfriend and I'm excited for a great weekend. Apparently he and my Sir made some plans for me. I have to wear rubber each day that I'm out here. It should be a fun rubbery long weekend!

And no issues with the airport and my chastity incase anyone was wondering. :)

Day 337

Today I switched back in to the CB 6k and well yes it's comfortable but I miss the Steelheart.

The Steelheart is the most comfortable and easiest device I've worn.  While it is more difficult to clean out I have figured out a way to clean it properly which I discussed previously (on Day 296 and 298).  And though that is more work, I find that it only needs to be done about every other day.  As for lube or lotion though I about once a week lotion up around the device just to prevent breakdown from happening.  Which is about how frequently I shave around the device to keep from pulling hairs.

I also find that peeing in the Steelheart is more convenient than in the CB 6k.  When I was sitting down to piss today I did and it made a big mess because the hole is so wide.  There is just something very simple and easy feeling about the Steelheart in design and use.

But until I return I'll be in this:

Day 336

Something is nice about going to work and having things normal, even if my PA was jingling inside of the device all day long!  Part of it was slightly embarrassing but also slightly thrilling.  While sometimes I don't think about being in chastity much, the little jingle every once and a while is a fun little reminder.

On Thursday I fly out to go see my boyfriend and I'm excited about it, but not excited about going back into a different device.  I have to say this steel device is the best one I've ever worn and to go back would just be unfortunate.  But I don't really want to travel with a steel device.  I've already had my one side room search with the TSA I'd really like to not go through that again.  (That wasn't until I'd already flown with acrylic devices a number of times and the reason I got searched was not due to chastity, but either way I don't want to risk it.)

Day 335

Thank god today is almost over!  While I haven't really had any problems with my chastity (though I now remember why I don't wear boxers when I'm in chastity...it's just not a good combo) it has been a hell of a day.  But tomorrow will be better or at least I hope it will. 

Day 334

Sunday's are wonderful, thank you Sir!

Today I rediscovered my dildos, it's been a while since I've brought them out.  I've had a lot of fun lately getting my hands in my hole.  But my toys have been neglected for too long especially since sometimes it's fun to go for depth.  I love stretching my hole wide, but there's something wonderful about going deep into my hole.

While I didn't get off from my evening of fun, afterwards I laid back and just smiled and enjoyed myself.  It's nice to just enjoy he fun things I can do when I'm locked in chastity.

Day 333

Today has been wonderful, it was the last day of my Saturday classes for this semester. I'm very excited about this because things will be a little calmer for a while. That won't last long as there are a lot of things to deal with for school and otherwise.
But for the time being it should help my last stent of chastity. I feel as if I will also have more time to play with my hole a little more which is always a good thing!

Day 332

Tomorrow cannot come fast enough because essentially the semester will be over!

Today I again spent a lot of time on my school work and chastity actually probably helped me stay on task. But it's been quite nice.

Day 331

Chastity as usual today.  I will have to say that I'm craving jacking off just because I want that sensation on my cock, but I don't really want to get off, if that makes any sense.  I've touched on it before, but sometimes I don't want to get off just the pleasurable sensation that comes from playing with my cock.  I know of course if I did though it would only be moments before I started cumming because it's so sensitive though.  But I would give quite a bit to just sit back and edge all day.

Of course I won't but that's because I'm a bit of a masochist and because I don't have the time. I have a paper to finish so it's probably good I'm locked up, I've certainly found plenty of things to keep me from my paper with no help from my cock.

Day 330

Since I don't want another punishment I'm posting early today.  It has been a good day but really nothing exciting.  Just lots of work on school stuff.  I'm just not letting it get me bogged down.  This semester will be over shortly though!

Day 329

I've been such a busy boy lately and it's not helping me to remember to post on time! Another late one today and I'm dreading my punishment.  I will be so glad once Saturday is here and all of my school work is essentially over of the semester!  While it's not too much or too crazy it in combination with life I'm getting a little lost.  But that's why it's nice that I have chastity because it kind of makes me come back to me for at least a little bit each day.

Day 328

Some days it's hard to express just how chastity effects me. Partly this is because some days it doesn't really effect me, but obviously as its a part of me it has some impact on me. It's odd to me because perhaps it is actually having a larger impact on me than I realize but since it has been a part of me for so long I no longer think of it as an effect on me instead I find it to just be me. This makes me wonder if I had the device removed if I would continue with my chastity on will power. I highly doubt that would be the case since I couldn't wait to jack off at IML but it could be. I would certainly imagine I would not be as controlled by my cock. Yes I think I and many other people give a lot of power to their cocks and there is nothing wrong with that. (I personally love it when I guy puts a lot of power into his cock when he fucks my hole.) But I hate when I feel like I have to jerk off or I'll go crazy. There is no need for that. Even when I'm super horny or turned on why must I get off or jack off, can't I just enjoy those feelings for what they are?

Day 327

What a long weekend it has been, which would typically drive me crazy because I would be looking for cock the whole time. But I've spent it with family and friends, with horniness always in the back of my mind. But it was nice to just have my chastity there and a part of me but not driving me crazy.

Of course today I got to play with my ass for an hour which was wonderful as is always expected. It's so interesting sometimes how just my fingers can do wonders in my hole, but I have found all the great places to play with and I love it!

Day 326

Another decent day in chastity with not much going on which is nice. I'm definitely very horny but I'm not to worried about it. I'm just don't care that much about the being horny unless it's making me crawl up the wall. Hopefully that won't happen anytime soon but it's oh so likely.

Day 325

I'm a busy boy and apparently a bad one as well. Tonight is another late post. I had a wonderful evening with family and so I was busy and not thinking about my chastity at all. I thought about posting earlier today but didn't because I'm not always the most on top of things.

Perhaps I just really want more spankings because I do enjoy them in my own weird way usually. Or perhaps I have just become so accustomed to my chastity device that it is no longer enough to remind me to post. Either way it's been a good day but chastity was not on my mind.

Day 324

Happy Thanksgiving!

Today has been a wonderful day! Nothing too exciting but it has been wonderful to relax with friends. I've not forgotten about chastity but it hasn't been important to me today. Some days that happens and I won't complain one bit!

Day 323

I know I talk about the days where being in chastity helps me focus today was one of those days. I needed to get up get to work and then get some work done on my apartment and I will attribute some of my success in accomplishing that to my chastity. Had I not been locked up it would have been very easy to lay in bed and jack off, and then jack off again...and maybe a third time before doing anything today. Then in between task I would have at least thought about jacking off if not done it just to make it enjoyable. But instead I stayed focused got things accomplished and had a good day! I realize now I rarely talk about the good days that occur when I don't have sex. Usually I calm them normal but really normal isn't bad and usually it's pretty good.

And I have to say I have the best Sir; he is amazing!

Day 322

Today was pretty typical nothing too out of the ordinary.  I just had work and dealing with the crazy that is going on in my life.  I really am looking forward to some time with my family coming up.  It will be another very nice distraction from my chastity, but really I prefer to think of it as a preoccupation.  I never forget about my chastity and as it really isn't something that controls my life at the time being I don't think it's something for me to get distracted from but something that just isn't as prominent in my consciousness.

But I do have to say I'm horny and want cock....bad!

Day 321

Last night Sir and I got together and it was a ton of fun as always.  I left a much happier boy than I went over which is always good.  I didn't get a punishment for posting late a couple of days ago, but he made sure to let me know that will be coming soon.  After we finished having fun we spoke briefly about what's going to happen after I get out.  But more importantly we talked about why I enjoy chastity.

It's something very challenging to put into words.  It's hard to say there are any singular moments that make chastity an awesome experience.  Yes the orgasms that I have when I'm released from chastity are spectacular, but those in and of themselves do not totally make up for being locked up.  There is something about being constantly restrained and locked up that I enjoy in general.  I do have to say there are some days that absolutely suck, but really there is nothing about those days that probably wouldn't suck unlocked.  Yeah I would have a minor distraction but is that distraction really something I need in my life?  In all honesty I have plenty of other things that distract me.  I don't know if that even really says why I enjoy chastity, but I really do love chastity because it's fun!  All of the things that I have done this year in-between getting out of chastity has been absolutely awesome and I wouldn't trade them for anything!  That is one of the things that definitely has made chastity a wonderful experience.

Day 320

So today was another Sunday funday, I had to play with my hole for an hour and it was simply wonderful again.  No there aren't any photos and I'm sure some of you will be disappointed but it was really a great time for me to just have some fun by myself.  Rarely do I get to just have fun and relax with myself.  Though I do certainly enjoy getting together with other people as I've mentioned before, sometimes it's nice to remember I can have fun with myself just for myself.  Even if I can't get to my cock or cum I can have a great time, though a good wank after I played would have been wonderful!  I don't miss it.

Day 319

Today was nothing too exciting it was spent mostly writing a paper so there was little though about my chastity.  Though during one of my naps I had a fun dream about putting things up my hole.  I'm not really sure where it came from but it was fun.  When I woke up I was so confused but it was nice.

Day 318

Wow, this year is really coming to a close shortly.  It's weird to think that 317 days ago I put on a chastity device and said I'm going to do this for a year.  In many respects it really doesn't feel like that long ago, but of course it's been a long year without my cock.  And it's time like now when things are a little chaotic and I really want it back I'm a little glad I don't have it.  Mostly because I would just be sitting around jerking off all the time ignore the things that need to happen.

Day 317

Another decent day, just relaxing and trying to be productive. I'm starting to get into final papers and the end of the semester very quickly and it's starting to scare me a little bit making me crave some fun. But I'm having a weird problem of not feeling all that sexual. While yes I have my fits of horny rage I think this chastity is also having a bit of an effect on my overall libido but in the opposite way that I expected. So that's a bit odd but I'm working with it and trying to just take it one day at a time.

Day 316

Hmmm...today... nothing too exciting just a normal day for a locked up boy.  My cock is locked under steel and out of my reach.  I have realized I need to go back down to a smaller size ring on this device to keep me suitably locked away, but I'm still debating the PA loop that would really keep me locked down. I simply wonder a little about its effectiveness because the PA could slip up the side of the loop and I would still be able to to kind of get out of it.  I mean it would be awkward and probably painful so it would be another deterrent.  It would definitely be worth it, I just don't want to part with such a comfortable and awesome device.  But perhaps when I fly to see my boyfriend soon I can send it back in since I'll probably put the acrylic back on just so I don't have any airport security issues...again....

Day 315

Grrrr and ahhhh.... Today was very nice because I got to play with my new jock! That was wonderful, it smelled amazing and got me to the edge so quickly! It felt very nice, less like I was having a total orgasm though but I mean cumming is cumming!

But also there is lots of personal stuffing going on that is stressing me out and driving me crazy. I'm surviving but it's definitely going to be a little rough.

Day 314

What a wonderful night I had last night playing in my hole. It just puts me in a wonderful mood and relaxes me like nothing else. And when I get to play around in there I just let go let everything relax and there's that moment when my hands are opening my hole up and I just feel my ass give way and open wide!

I'm also in a better mood because I finally got to sleep well last night. Plus RubberRedBear's jock came in the mail today! I didn't have the time to put it to good use yet, but of course I had to take a whiff as soon as I got the package open. I got so horned up I thought might have been able to cum just sniffing it. But I put it back zipped it up and will bring it out tomorrow to have an awesome time!

Day 313

So today is my first Sunday fun-day and I'm excited yet not. I love playing with my hole obviously, but I'm just so exhausted and with going out last night I certainly wasn't going to wake up before work to play with my ass.

So I know it will feel awesome, but I kind of just don't want to do it...because I'm being lazy. Of course I'll feel better once I do it and once I get my hands and toys in there I won't be able to stop, but it's getting started. I don't want to be the lazy bottom, but I just want someone to fuck me! I don't want to lay there while I get fucked. I just don't want to do the work of the top, trying to relax my body and hole while trying to fuck myself is a difficult task. Maybe that means I need a new toy! :)

Day 312

Today was okay nothing too exciting just a busy day with class. While I'm still a little crazed because of my chastity it's going well.  I got some good feed back from some of my papers which is always a good thing to hear and definitely gets me even more excited about my program.  It helps me reaffirm that I'm in the right spot which I'm sometimes nervous about which is what drives me a little crazy sometimes.  I get anxious and then have no outlet for it so I just let it build up and I need something to let go of it, perhaps a good flogging or spanking.  (I saw a caning demo last night and it got me in the mood, also the reason I forgot to post before midnight.....uh oh!)

Day 311

Blah.... yeah that's how things are going if I'm being completely honest.  Part of it is just my mentally and physically exhausted, but also things are just in a state of being.  I'm simply plugging along on my path for my degree and I'm working when I can trying to take it one day at a time.
I'm not really a fan of that.  I'm not a planner of any sort really, but I like to be able to look around me see what's happening in the world.  I like to know where I am in the world around me but right now that's not really happening.  I'm just existing within myself and I know it's slightly depressing but it's where I'm at.
I've gotten to the point that I really don't think about my chastity as something that exerts any force on me.  It's just a part of me, a part of my being.  It is not inherently good or bad, but simply there.  Sometimes it sucks, sometimes it's fun, but as far as affecting me at this point while it definitely exacerbates some feelings and some situations I would never say it creates them.  In that vain it really just tells me, "Hey you stop ignoring shit and do something about it!"  So it's interesting, but right now I wouldn't have it any other way.

Day 310

Today was decent nothing really exciting, good or bad.  It was just a long day full of activities.  And I'm entirely okay with that. So often something from the day sticks out and just gets me going in either the right or wrong way.  There's just something nice about having a "normal" day.

Day 309

I'm coming to the end of the adventure with this jock strap and while I'm loving playing in my hole every day, it's starting to ask for a rest.  Though Sir isn't going to let it rest for long.  He has decided that I need to play with my ass once a week for the rest of the time I'm locked up.  I couldn't be more grateful for the task; it will be a wonderful way for me to keep myself content.  But I will definitely be looking for fun with others because well I need some cock in my life!

Day 308

Okay so be prepared for some bitchy from me this week.  It's going to be very busy and my spare time from work will be spent filled with chores and other things that I've been putting off while I've been focusing on school.  While it's going to be hard for me to find time to play and stay sane I'll have to find it sometime!  It can be done, but it's going to be my challenge...

Day 307

This has been a busy time for me and it's not been easy but I've pulled through and not gone crazy. I have a few people to thank for that, but it's proof that I can stay sane in chastity.

I know the year isn't over yet but in looking back its been a good year and chastity hasn't really changed much. Sure it's made me a little crazed a few times and helped me into some pretty fowl moods, but that's not all that different than most. This time I just have a really good thing to blame! While I'm definitely looking forward to some alone time with my cock I really have to say when I really think about it I don't want it back for ever. I really crave being locked up (or at least seriously controlled).

And as a quick side note I'm looking into getting a PA fixing ring (http://steelworxx.de/PA-Fixing-114p.html) for the device because even with the small ring I could have easily pulled out of the device. And the idea of it is just hot! Only downside is we would have to send the device back to get it fitted. It would be worth it but it would be a bit sad.

Day 306

What a wonderful weekend I had at MIR. It was filled with friends, fun, and rubber. What more could a boy want? While I'm also ready to relax and just sit down and do nothing that's not tonight. I still have my jock responsibilities and school work to accomplish. So going to be a busy boy from now until forever, but the two month mark is quickly approaching which is very exciting!

Chastity has definitely kept me on edge lately and that's not a bad thing but it's not helping me "roll with the punches" as of late. There's really no reason for that, but it has made me a little more fixated and tense. That makes me think it's not all the chastity but it's certainly not helping.

Day 305

Today was wonderful and completely impromptu! We went to the market for the rubber pup rumpus and enjoyed that. But afterwards we went home talked to Sir and got together for some fun!
I got tied up and blindfolded and toyed with by my boyfriend until Sir arrived at that point I was tied to the bed and plotting happened...

They came back and started playing with my hole and then I stated getting fucked by Sir, until I heard him moaning and realized he was getting fucked too! Later I was turned around and Sir was fucking me until a little bit more my boyfriend was pushing on my hole too and soon they were both in me having lots of fun and I was in heaven! It was amazing!
And I never got out but who cares when I've got two cocks on me!

Day 304

Today was wonderful down at the MIR market with my boyfriend. We had a lot of fun just looking at things and getting a few new pieces, but mostly seeing friends and just enjoying the rubber. Of course I got into a little trouble in the demo area. I met a couple people and somehow ended up in a straight jacket strapped down to a table and tortured. There were various hands on me and a couple different toys, namely a vibrator and car buffer on my chastity which was a very interesting yet awesome experience. It was certainly not going to get me off but the stimulation was nice since my cock rarely gets any at all.

Later tonight there's a party so hopefully I will have lots of stories but those will have to wait until tomorrow!

Day 303

The weekend is about to begin and I can't wait! I still have a ton of stuff to get accomplished tomorrow but I'm feeling a bit better about it. I'm still anxious as all get out but I know that somehow when it comes down to it I'll pull it off and do it well. Yeah it might be a but cocky but I have to believe I can do it or I'm going to FLIP out.

And honestly I don't know how much the chastity is really affecting me. Obviously it's there and doing something but really this is how I've always handled papers, just usually I don't get this stressed. Usually though I don't have the same time constraints. I'll pull an all nighter to write and edit the paper an then re-edit the next day. With work and other things it hasn't quite been able to work like that. So chastity has almost kept me more focused on it because I have the sexual distraction taken out, but that's definitely increased my anxiety because I don't have my usual easy outlets.

Day 302

So yes I work well under pressure, and I'm getting this paper I've been talking about for ages. I'm so glad to be having it done, but the amount of pressure, some self imposed is out of control and driving me crazy!
I'm dealing with it but it's impacting my motivation. Which I know is slightly contradictory from what I just said, but until it hit the last minute mark I just kept saying, "But I don't wanna!" which is really is to do and say shit sucks. Blah blah blah but now it really sucks and I'm going to have give up a lot of sleep before MIR as if i won't give up enough during!

Day 301

I'm a moody moody boy...  Hopefully towards the end of this week once things are over and I can enjoy times with my boyfriend and friends at MIR.  I'm really just hoping that my school work doesn't impact my fun time.  The stress is getting to me and without the time for release I'm just going to have to try to relax buckle down and get to the goal.  I think it will work, but without letting a little steam go that is definitely going to prove to be challenging...

Day 300

The weekend is going to be very exciting.  My boyfriend is flying in for MIR and it's going to be a ton of fun.  But before he gets here I have to lot of work to get done.  I have two large papers due on Sunday and Monday right after MIR.  So they need to get done before the weekend begins.  One is finished but the other is just getting started.  Hopefully without distractions I'll be able to get them accomplished and be able to totally enjoy the weekend!  As long as I don't get super horny this week I should be okay.

Hopefully playing with myself for an hour a day will help and on top of that today playing with my balls will help a little...or maybe it might make it worse.  We'll have to wait and see...

Day 299

I've had so much fun playing in my ass everyday for the past week and I've still got about a week left.  I really enjoy it, but I definitely wouldn't be doing it if I wasn't told to.  I rarely give myself that kind of attention even when I want it.  Plus my hole is getting stretched and it's spectacular!

Day 298

So as promised today is my review of the new device.

It is the Steelheart from Steelworxx.de and is the most comfortable device I have worn yet (and there's no way I'm going to break this one)!

So there are many benefits to wearing a steel device, but one of the big ones I appreciate is not having to lube up daily.  This is not a hassle with the CBs, but it uses a lot of q-tips, lube, and consumes some of my time.  But not having to worry about chaffing is a wonderful thing. Also this steel device is the same size all the way down the tube, though not all are, which is a very nice thing.  When my cock gets hard in no longer feels like it is being crushed by the sides of the device (though I do miss seeing my cock pressed in there, skin poking out the holes).  Personally I like peeing at urinals with this device better as well.  It does make a louder sound because it pours straight down, but it's so much easier to control the stream of piss.  In other devices for me since I have a large piss slit I have trouble perfectly aligning the holes up.  But in this one it's only got a small hole at the bottom to get out of.  For me this creates an occasional back up in the tube so the device keeps peeing momentarily once I've stopped, but that doesn't bother me.

I do have to admit I clank around in this device more than others since it's metal on metal.  I don't notice a whole lot but it does certainly make slightly nervous.  Also though I like the single hole to piss through, it does tend to have a little residual piss in it which isn't always desirable.  And the cleaning process is proving to still be a bit of a challenge.  Though I think I've established a good routine with it.  Before my shower I squirt a couple of bulbs of water into the device (filling from the sink) and then take my shower and rinse the tube out once more before I get out.  This is not the perfect process but until I find the bottle I want (below).  It will do.

So overall the negatives are greatly out numbered by the positives and I couldn't be happier wearing this device. ;)

Day 297

Another wonderful day enjoying my new device. It still gets me each time I get hard and feel myself pressing against the cold steel. It's not every time just after showers, go outside, or walk around naked. I am planning on writing my full pro/con list tomorrow so hopefully you boys looking to lock up find it helpful.

I'm still in my jock and it's already full of precum, but today I was playing with myself opening my hole and almost for my fist in there. I probably would have cum had I, but I'm building up that last load for RubberRedBear.

Day 296

I love steel!

It just feel so much better. There is something natural feeling about this device. Today at least I felt it a lot more than I felt then CB 6k for a while but it was nice. I found that my PA was clanking a bit this morning but really it wasn't too bad.

There are a few differences that I'm noticing, mostly just that the shape of the device is better while yes the "cock" shape of the CB is kind of nice because it gives room for the head. This device is thicker all the way down and so my exertions feel completely different. It's almost like when I get hard I don't really feel hard because I don't feel like my cock is trying to break free. It's a good feeling, but I also kind of miss my skin poking through the holes on the side. Hehe I also really enjoy that the steel feels hot and cold it kind of reminds me that it's there more often. And yes pissing is way different in this device but not unmanageable. I haven't tried peeing at a urinal yet but that will be interesting. Because it only has the one hole (smaller than the piss hole on the CB) it takes longer to drain which means sometimes it starts filling up the tube...

But for cleaning last night I picked up this little thing:

And it worked fairly well this morning.its difficult to use in the shower because I need a bowl or something to suck up the water from but I made it work. Only problem is it took like 6 or 7 times for me to really feel like it got clean which is a lot more time than cleaning the CB. So I'm looking for something else either like it but bigger or something I can fill up almost like a bulb douche, but most of those have tips too large for the whole at the bottom of the device. But I'll keep looking until I find the perfect piece of equipment.

Day 295

Oh my goodness, soooo much to write about today.

First off I got to play with Sir today which is always a good time.  As usual there were a couple things to punish me for and let me tell you I'll be thinking about them for a couple days.  He canned my ass in what felt like the exact same spot over and over again.  Just before that though he took out the plug I'd had in for 2 hours while I was running errands and hanging around. Once he got it out he got his fingers inside pressing up against my prostate, enough to make me moan but not enough pressure to get me anywhere.
After he was finished beating my ass he fucked my hole so hard and so well tonight.  My hole was already opened up and ready for him to pound away as he always does.  He puts so much force behind his cock straight into my ass and it feels so good!  After a while he put me on the mattress and began fucking me there where he begin hitting up against my prostate while he was fucking me.  It felt awesome to get pounded here and there by his cock instead of my fingers. And since I'm supposed to be getting lots of ass play these two weeks I'm in this jock, he plowed until he was done and I wasn't going to stop him, not that I ever would or could. :)

But that was not the only exciting thing that happened tonight.  After we finished up, he took me to the bathroom and took off my device for cleaning which happens occasionally.  Then I hopped in the shower got out and he surprised me with a nice shiny piece of metal for my cock!  He'd apparently had enough of me breaking his plastic devices so metal is the next logical option right?

So far I absolutely love it!  It just feels less complicated and like it's just better.  It's a little heavier, but not really noticeable.  My PA does clink around a little bit more in it since it's metal on metal, but with tighter underwear it shouldn't be noticeable.  I didn't hear it once I put my jock back on.  It was interesting though when I went to the corner store to try to find something to aid in cleaning the device I got a little hard and my cock pressed up against cold metal from walking outside.  It was an odd feeling but kind of fun and nice.

I'm still wearing my red jock and it's getting quite a nice musk about it and I've still got over a week to go....

Day 294

Today was pretty nice and easy. I had a long day of work which was frustrating because I had other plans for my day and had forgotten about it. But it ended up okay and it's money so I can't really complain. But.....

Yesterday I was plugged up for 2 hours. I finally took it out and, I was feeling really horny.  I though it might subside a little, but then I realized I didn't want it to.  I wanted to get back in my hole and have some fun.  So before bed around 2:00 am I pulled out the lube laid backed and started working me hole.  It was nice and warmed up, a little loose and ready to get used.  I was quickly filling it with 3 and 4 fingers, but I really wanted to give it a good workout so I lubed up both my hands, stuck my fingers in my hole.  I started opening it up, relaxing my hole, and stretching it out just a little bit getting my fingers deep in my hole playing around inside.  As my fingers were exploring around just finding new spots to hit that felt amazing I started to feel like I was going to cum.  I didn't think I was hitting my prostate; I certainly wasn't trying at least.  So I gave my hole a break but I'd hit that point and it was coming.  Soon jizz was dribbling out of my cock and into my jock, not really an orgasm, just cumming.

I thought to myself, I wasn't done!  So I kept going working my hole just invading it with my hands enjoying all of the sensations going on.  Soon I stood up and saw my jock covered in cum and as I went to pull them down to clean up a bit a little dribble of cum was still stuck to my cage waiting to drip into the jock...

Day 293

It's so nice to successful sometimes. I've been putting a lot of work into studying for my midterm that I took today and did very well on it!  I've been channeling a lot of focus into my school work in an effort to detract a little from my locked up cock and it's paying off.

My adventure continues with my red jock that I'm preparing for RubberRedBear and it's coming along nicely.  Playing in my hole everyday is wonderful and though I certainly can't do it forever, it does take some time and effort, these 2 weeks will be well worth it.  Today I wore it to school for the first time which was a little exciting for me because well if my classmates only knew. Haha.  When I got home though it was time to give my hole it's hour of attention so today in an effort to continue my productivity I plugged up and just give it a wiggle now and then and pull it up with my ass everyone and a while.  It has done it's job letting me have some fun and make some precum.  Below you can see the jock at school, yeah it's in the bathroom, I'm not quite daring enough to do much more than that there.  Along with that though you can see the pool of precum I worked up this evening in my jock.

Day 292

Another wonderful day following the rules for my jock strap.  I spent an hour working my hole nice and slow just working it open and relaxing it.  It felt as if I was edging myself from my hole which is just an interesting experience, but wonderful!  It definitely felt as if I could have worked a load of cum out tonight, but I want to just build up a nice big one.  Too many times and I might feel like I'm cheating on chastity, and I really wouldn't want to do that!

Day 291

I've been chatting with a wonderful guy on Recon RubberedRedBear and a while ago he sent me a picture of him in a jock.  He was looking really hot and got me going as usual, because he likes to tease me by getting me horny.  And he threw the idea out there that perhaps I got could get the jock he was wearing after a while if I earned it.  So he took a couple days and came up with an appropriate way to do so.  Essentially I'm to wear it at all times and only take it off for showering of course, wouldn't want to wash any of the good smells away!  And I have to play with my ass for an hour each day to fill up the jock with as much precum (and hopefully a little cum) as possible.

Once he gave me my guidelines I was almost running to the store to by a jock for him.  Just thinking about it was getting me hard.  So yesterday I bought a nice red jock, wore it all day, got my fingers in my ass and started the 2 weeks.  

Today I've kept it on and played with my hole again.  It's gonna be nice and used for the next two weeks and I'm excited about it. 

Day 290

It's shocking how long the effects of an orgasm can last when you only get them so often. Today I still feel wonderful in part to my organs yesterday. I can just feel the release still.
While I can't say the long lasting effects outweigh the awesomeness of frequent orgasms I will say it's a nice feeling.

Day 289 Part 2

So I posted a while ago but there has been a new development in the day, I came!  Yes you have been reading my constant desire for an orgasm now for a while and it finally happened.  And I have to be honest it was worth every moment of waiting!  I had been playing with my ass for a while (took some video of that so hopefully it will be up soon) and after the camera went off I decided I was going to play with my prostate and just see what happened.  I was certainly horny enough for it.  As I enjoyed being in my ass I hit on my prostate just quickly and I kept on it and only a couple of minutes later I was there on the brink of cumming.  It came out of nowhere but I sure wasn't going to stop.  As I kept pounding on my prostate the cum started flowing from my cock, shooting a little and then pouring out of my caged up dick.  I don't really remember much from when it started oozing until a couple minutes later when I realized yes I need the camera for this to snap a picture.  It was just simply sensational!

Day 289

So I got the pics from my friend and here you go it was quite the adventure of an afternoon as you'll see down below.  But today was good and relaxing definitely a good change from yesterday when I left my play session and was incredibly horny.  It's been nice and relaxing getting some work done.

He started by getting me tied up very securely on the bed making sure I wasn't going to go anywhere.  He inserted an Aneros prostate stimulator and hooded me up while I waited for what was to come next...

 Soon the clothes pins came and he placed them where he could and toyed with them, flicking them and soon bringing out the vibrator teasing and torturing them all...

 But soon, they came off he lifted my ass up and started to hit it.  I wasn't exactly sure what it was but it was very nice.  I couldn't tell what it was until we were all done.

 And after he had his fill the vibrator came back out and he was teasing my ass again.

 Soon it was time for the electro and I was hooked up and it was zapping away.  It felt wonderful and I remembered exactly why I enjoy electro because it's almost like my cock is getting touched in an odd way.

 It continued almost getting me to cum, but ultimately my cock laid in it's cage just dripping precum.

Day 288

Today was another good day.  It's been a little less productive, but it's been well worth it.  Today I also played with a friend of mine that I played with a while ago and had a wonderful time!  I got really close to coming with electro, but of course with my luck neither that nor the prostate stimulator got me off.  So I left extremely horny, but I felt amazing!

This time we got pictures so hopefully those will be up in the next couple days.

Day 287

Wow is today better and no orgasm, and to be quite honest being able to jerk off probably would have just sat around all day doing that instead of what I did.  I was productive, took sometime for myself, and feel SO much better.  It's easy for me to let things pile up, and usually when they do I take care of it.  Lately though I haven't had the time to do that and today I finally did and life feels better.  While I think chastity has added to this experience, it definitely was not the cause.  And tomorrow I'm supposed to be playing with a friend so hopefully that will make me feel even better. :)

Day 286

I'd really rather not post today I'm just in the mood to eliminate all responsibilities from my life for 24-48 hours. Unfortunately that won't result in a positive outcome in the long term so I won't but I'd sure love to!
So I was hoping that with the next couple of days I would have some time to just do my own thing and like I said yesterday center myself again. That's not happening. School is consuming me. It's one thing after another one project into another application process into another paper into a midterm... It just doesn't end and that little bit of time that would be for me when I don't have to be doing school work or the breaks that I build in to it are for work or staying socially connected so I don't turn into a hermit. But some days I need and want to be a hermit so I can figure out what the hell's going on with me and deal with it.
I just need me time and not in the sense of masturbating...while it sounds phenomenal and would make a lot of thing a feel better it's not really a great coping mechanism...
Aaaahhhhhhhhh!!!

Day 285

Todays been okay, I'm definitely ready for Tuesday though because I will finally get the chance to relax and I am planning on doing something for me.  I definitely need that too.  I'm not even thinking of anything sexual just time for me.  I've been feeling the need to recenter myself and just kind of bring all of the things in my life back together.  At the moment I'm just doing everything one thing at a time taking one challenge on and then moving to the next.  It's been working but I don't think it's good for me.  It means that I'm leaving other parts out and not getting back to them because it's not immediate.  So hopefully Tuesday I will find a way to feel whole again.

Day 284

Yes I'm late again, today though that's the least of my worries. This morning was hell, not due to chastity but due to lack of sleep and annoying students at school. So I just have been in a mood that hasn't been all that positive, but I think back on it and it's probably a good thing. It has taught me an important lesson about planning and paying attention to my school schedules. While I would really enjoy saying its because I couldn't jack off but really that has nothing to do with it. Yeah it may have made my day a tad bit better and relieved a little stress but then I wouldn't have thought about the actual issues of the day. So thank you chastity for making me more self aware.

Day 283

It's been a good day, a little busy but that's a good thing. My most difficult days are the ones with nothing to do. It's too easy to fixate on my cock I can't have and the sexual cravings I have. Those days are also difficult because I want them to be lazy days and lazy days do not include cleaning out and impaling myself. For those who do it as I have it takes work!

Day 282

Perhaps my hole just can't get enough.  This afternoon I was trying to sit down to study, but I simply couldn't focus I was horny and watching porn, wanting to have some fun.  But I knew that was unlikely as it was the middle of the day, and most people have to work. So I went into my closet and my tub of toys, grabbed a plug and slowly worked it into my hole.
I was hard just feeling the rubber plug against my hole and started dripping precum all over.  It slipped in and I felt great sitting down to my work.  It helped.  I wasn't as horny and could focus on my articles.  As I moved around I could feel it rubbing around inside keeping my cock hard and making me ooze precum. A couple hours later before going to the store, I figured I should take it out.  When I looked down at my underwear I could see a nice big wet spot from my cock dripping like it always does.  I secretly wished it was a load of cum in there but I was content with a puddle of precum. Perhaps since it's already stretched out I'll have to find something more to go in it later...

Day 281

It feel so good to get fucked!  A good friend of mine that I've fooled around with hit me up on my way home this afternoon.  He got straight to the point and just asked if I was up for a fuck tonight.  Of course I was, in this state I'm always up for it.

So I got home got ready and went to his place.  As soon as I walked in the door we stripped down and I was almost gagging on his cock as it hit the back of my throat.  Once he'd had his fill of my throat he brought me up bent me over his sofa and started pounding away.  He went to town fucking my hole using it oh so well.  As he got more and more into it he started spanking my ass just driving me absolutely crazy.  He kept fucking and I was bouncing back against his cock making it go as deep as his cock could plow into my hole.  I knew I wasn't going to cum from this fucking but it didn't matter one bit because it felt awesome! He kept fucking my hole until he couldn't hold back and blew his load.  I almost didn't want to it end, but my hole was used up and feeling good and so was I.

It was a a great way to spend the evening waiting for my latest iPhone update to finish downloading. :)

Day 280

So today was nice, I didn't quite get the time to play with myself that I had hoped for but that is due to my own lack of planning.  I had to do it before work, but sleep sounded so much better...while I was still laying in my bed.  So I didn't work towards that orgasm I've kind of been wanting and craving lately.  I will get there one of these days, but I rarely feel like putting in that effort.  Yes I know that sounds somewhat silly, but personally it takes quite a bit to bring myself to orgasm from playing with my ass.  Also the last few times that I've tried to do it, I haven't been able to make it happen for some unknown reason.  I'm perfectly content not either that's the other thing at play.  Not cumming doesn't bother me so when it doesn't happen I'm not super disappointed or upset, life just moves right along.  So we'll see when it happens, but one day soon I hope I'll have an orgasm....somehow....

Day 279

So usually Mondays are fun days, but not today I was being productive and getting lots of things accomplished. So I decided tomorrow is going to be my fun day. I'm going to try to make myself cum. I just feel like I need to get rid of some from my body. Maybe it'll just happen overnight and I won't have to worry about it. Either way I'm pulling out some toy tomorrow. :)

Day 278

Another good day in chastity, but I'm about to get very busy with school.  I knew this was coming up and I have planned accordingly, but it's still going to be a very stressful time.  So I'm hoping to have fun with others and myself to keep sane, but I'll make it happen I'm sure.  In case I start to get crazy on here I just wanted forewarn you.  I'm already a little anxious to get play with my cock.  I've kept it at bay fairly well so far, but it's about to have me up the walls...
Maybe I'll be able to get a load out of myself soon, hopefully!

Day 277

Another great day in chastity nothing new to report; of course it's still on and I'm enjoying it. I was entertained when a friend of mine asked if I had gotten out because he was in town. Not yet, but I never know. I doubt it though. I don't want to add any more days to my chastity nor does Sir or my boyfriend...I think.

But it's wonderful having my boyfriend around and being with friends all weekend.

Day 276

My boyfriend is here yay!!! Just having him around is a wonderful thing and makes everything better. The CB 6k is still on and keeping me locked up. Nothing new really to report still horny and aching but that's about it.

Day 275

Another day without an orgasm, what's new in my life! ;)

It's been a good day and my boyfriend gets in soon for the weekend so I have plenty to be excited about.  But chastity is just chastity at this point.  I really wish I had hot stories of guys groping me in bars and their shock and horror.  Or men looking over while pissing at the stalls at school, but alas I have nothing exciting.  I have become accustom to this lifestyle of infrequent and unknown orgasms.  It's what I wanted/want, but it's certainly not always exciting.

Day 274

Ahh, just another good relaxing day. Not much thought was devoted to my chastity. Of course I couldn't escape it all day, but the thoughts came and went quickly. But the thought of jacking off keeps coming back into my mind....I hope it goes away some day.

Until then I'll just keep putting it into the back of my mind and hope it doesn't drive me crazy!

Day 273

Today was a nice day for me.  It was very relaxing which I've been needing for a while, but it still wasn't totally what I've been craving.  And no I'm not talking about an orgasm.  I've been fairly satisfied in that department for quite a while.  Though I haven't had one in I don't know how long I have come so close a number of times that it's keeping me content.  Some more me time will be nice tomorrow, but I can't spend it all relaxing.  Coming up with a really good balance in my life with an even more unpredictable schedule is proving a little difficult.  Even with my work having a funky schedule it was less funky than what I'm doing now with work and school.  And that was part of what helped keep me sane was that I had days off that I knew I didn't have to do anything.  Now in school and constantly having readings and research to do it's not quite as easy.  And again the lack of instant gratification and pleasure I get from jerking off has made it a little more difficult, but this is the year I choose and I'm enjoying it.  Personally I wouldn't have it any other way right now.
I find chastity a really great experience and enjoy it thoroughly.  If I were to do it again on such a scale, I would have to work in a way in which I could have time with my penis occasionally though.  Rarely being able to get to it myself is my one real struggle.  I like giving up the control of it, but I don't want to give it up.

Day 272

When I ordered my newest toy, I also got a couple little ball stretchers which I thought might be fun.  Well today I finally got one on.  I tried really quickly when I got it of course but with the device it looked like it was going to be tough so I put it off.  So after a long day today I figured it would be worth it to make it happen.  Let me tell you it was not an easy task.  With the device around my junk it's a bit of a tight space, but I stretched my balls out and squeezed them through one at a time.  It was a bit painful but that's part of the fun!  Of course it's a nice tight fit and I'm really looking forward to how it feels with a nice raging hard on.  There is normally a nice little pull from the device but now with them already stretched it should be nice.

Day 271

ARGH!!!! I've been working on a paper all day and not necessarily a difficult one but I have struggle focusing on it.  I have no idea if this has to do with my chastity or not, but I'm attributing it there.  So yes at the moment I would love to smash the device into tiny bits and see if pumping out a few good loads help.  But if that is the case, then I need to save that for later when I have real papers! lol
Part of me is trying to remember back to college and what my habits were with writing papers (other than my constant procrastination).  But I don't really remember, I mean why would I?  I was jacking off at least once a day then probably more most days!

Day 270

I'm back in a weird horny place again.  Like a couple weeks ago I'm feeling really horny, but don't feel like doing much about it.  I know that part of that has to do with school kind of taking over my life at the moment, but since i know that's the case I feel a little bit better because I know the feeling will pass.  Or at least I hope that it does.
It could also be that I've been getting bits of fun and attention here and there and so I've not had an overwhelming urge to burst out sexually lately.  That's not really a bad thing just not really normal for the entire previous year.  Most of the year I've spent trying to calm the insatiable urges that have been tried taking over my life from time to time.  Now I have either done so well at that it's gone to far or other things are starting to take it's place and move my sexual desires to the back burner because I'm not constantly thinking about since I don't have the option to play with my cock.  Though it's a very aware back burner because I definitely know my cock is telling my body to have some  fun.

Day 269

Today was good nothing special, but I did wake up a very happy boy.  My new toy was a ton of fun and will get lots of use, just by me or with others.  I'm hoping for some of the latter!  Tomorrow is my big day of class (at school for 10 hours) so I'm hoping that my positive disposition from my play last night will carry me over.  Otherwise I'm going to be looking for a blow job on my lunch break!