Day 146

It's a little surprising how quickly I was starting to slip back into my habits of jacking off when I was out of chastity.  Though being back in hasn't really been too difficult but I have gone back to barely noticing it again already.  That might be part of the problem.  This evening I was laying around getting bored just watching TV and what do I do?  I reach for my cock to try to jerk off, but nope it's all locked up.  While it didn't really bother it was just a little funny to me that I even went for it.  But I guess that's what happens after just a few days with my cock, even if I didn't really have any huge nagging in me to jack off.

Though it hasn't been bad yet going back into chastity I feel like it's going to get interesting quickly.  As soon as a week or so hits I'm really going to miss my cock again I'm quite sure.  For now though I will relish in this feeling of not missing my cock.

Day 145 - IML recap

Today the reality of everything came crashing in for a variety of reasons, but most importantly to this blog my cock got locked up again this morning.  Of course not before having gotten off once more on the 4th night of freedom before bed and once this morning before getting locked up making my total orgasm count for IML 2011 to 7.  Not a huge number but one that I'm certainly happy with.  That's more than I've had in the 144 days leading up to it so I can't complain!

But now that we're back to the count and it's Monday I need pictures!  So I've gathered a few photos from the weekend to post, some from the stories I wrote about some not.  There are more pictures out there that I would love to share, but I'm waiting to receive them from others.  I'll update when I get them.  Until then these will have to suffice. ;)

And because it is a chastity blog I guess my locked cock should make an appearance ;)

Day 4 of Freedom

So my final day of freedom and I haven't actually cum yet, played plenty and had lots of fun but no cum.  I'm sure that will probably change before I go to bed and the night is over.  But I really have just gotten in the habit of not cumming and so there is not super weird or anything when I don't cum, it's just the normal thing.  I know to most of the world that sounds a little crazy and weird, and it probably is a little but I really have no complaints about it. :)

I got to wrap my boyfriend up and play with him at a party earlier today and then when I was getting ready for my play I came back and there he was all trussed up in a straight jacket and I got to play with him some more!  Really I just love to play with people and make sure everyone is having a good time.  When I know that everyone is enjoying themselves that's when I'm glad to just say yay and be content.  

Though I have to say I might be getting a bit spoiled with other people getting me off.  I can do it myself, but it's not nearly as enjoyable! ;)

Day 3 of Freedom

Today I'll be adding 2 more orgasms to my count. :)

IML has been a blast so far I've really enjoyed it this year especially staying in the hotel for the first time!

But on to the important things, I came in the shower and after my boyfriend tied me up.

It's odd how I almost forgot about jerking off in the shower because it's just not something that I do any more.  I really was just taking my shower this morning and as I was washing my cock I thought to myself, oh yeah that feels good!  So I just kept stroking it with no real plans of cumming but with my sensitive cock from being locked up it didn't take long and I was right on the edge and crossing over because it felt great (though not quite as good as I remember it being, but I'll talk about that in a second).

Then later I ran down to the market for a bit and when I came back up my boyfriend has some things laid out on the bed all ready for me and so he got me down on the bed stripped off all my clothes and tied me down.  He restrained my arms with the rope strung under the bed and wrapped my legs together with plastic wrap, which was different but quite nice actually. Of course by now I was blindfolded.  I knew nothing of what was  really to come other than he was going to have fun with me.  After a little while his hands are one my nipples wrenching on them a little really getting my cock rock solid (which is such a great feeling again).  And soon after he was working my balls over and stroking me a little, just alternating between the three spots watching me squirm and moan in pleasure.
Once his fingers slid into my ass I was very excited.  I haven't been fucked really well in a while.  My ass is lubed and he just goes for it, he starts pounding my ass.  Fast and hard then slow and gentle just making sure he was getting me close to cumming and then keeping me from cumming until it was just the right moment.  As he fucked me and stroked my cock it was hard from just instantaneously exploding, but I held back a little.  But once he had enough of my ass he let me cum and it was amazing!  As usual though he likes to keep stroking afterwards and really watch you squirm which I usually enjoy. But my head is so sensitive now from being locked up that I could barely stand it so it had me literally rolling around the bed and popping the plastic wrap on my legs.
Once he stopped with that though he came up and started fucking my face!  I love giving blowjobs it's one of many things I really enjoy.  But as it's always a weird angle from laying down he let me up and laid back to let me do the work and I sucked on his cock enjoying every bit of it until he blew his load down my throat with his cock shoved all the way down.

Needless to say I was a very happy boy at that point.

5 orgasms 1.5 days to go!

Day 2 part 2

First orgasm just for the sake of having an orgasm. I laid in bed watching my roommates romp in bed and edged for a while which was awesome! Once two were finished I finally decided it was time to let go because my cock couldn't hold back any more. That feeling was awesome and was a great sensation.

Finally I came and shot a nice load out of my cock, and it was a great orgasm for a simple jack off. But that was it, a simple orgasm I had the rush and great feeling and then it went away and things were back to normal. It's just not the same as a little chastity play session with myself. :)

Day 2 of Freedom

Today was really nice and so very different being out, when I woke up this morning with my morning wood I was a little surprise for it to not be sore.  I was wondering what was going on and then I remembered that I was free!  It was a very exciting moment I could reach down and grab it and play with my cock a little.  I didn't really want to jerk off, but it was nice just to be able to rub it a little.

After I was finally awake, my boyfriend started playing with my cock and started to jerk me off.  As he stroked my cock I was closer and closer to cumming but he didn't let me right away.  He backed off and then started working on it soon again.  Before long he had me cumming all over myself, and he kept stroking me torturing my incredibly sensitive cock. It was quite nice though just having the sensation back to my cock even if it was a little torturous.

3 orgasms on the count so far. :)  But honestly this weekend if I cum I cum, if I don't I don't.  Yes that sounds so very odd, but I've found so many other ways to have fun that really it's not a priority for me.  So we'll see what happens.

Day 1 of freedom

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Seriously just AMAZING!  Today was my first day out of lock up for IML.  And my amazing bf and Sir were talking and arranged for me to have some fun with Sir since he's all locked up now.  So we did just that and I couldn't feel soo good right now.

In our hotel room with our roommates and friends Sir came over for the unlocking ceremony (or moment really) and it was so nice to get out and have it feel some fresh air.  Sir had told me though though there would be an additional restriction this weekend which made me pretty nervous but as he blindfolded me to unlock me he took off my collar and put on a nice new shiny one and locked it with the lock for my cock so I can't take it off.  Not as bad as it could have been.

But after a bit of socializing well I couldn't help my cock it wanted to play so as I got Sir to undress and got him strapped to the bed I was deciding just what I should do to him.  I has asked him to bring along his paddles just for good measure, and since he loves a nice red ass I went to work.  I've spanked Sir one other time (fairly pathetically) so I had to make it up with this one.  And I think I made him proud, by the time I was done with his ass I had him moaning and cringing a few times and a nice rosy glow to his ass.  Of course he wasn't done there though.  I flipped him over and he sucked my cock like he wanted something.  I fucked his face and he sucked my cock and back and forth...finally I can feel myself getting close and I blow and orgasm to the point of almost having an out of body experience.  He continues sucking my cock to get every last drop out and by now I've definitely let the neighbors know what's going on in our room as I'm over taken with pleasure.

Then soon after I really wanted to fuck him so I got him all tied up again and started working him over having him suck me to get me ready for his ass again.  To tell the truth I was horny as hell ready to go, but my cock was not cooperating.  I think I was still just glowing and in a really happy place so it was hard (my roommates talk of getting pizza wasn't helping, lol).  But as I worked his ass to open it up a little bit I got harder and as helped guide my cock in (it's always easier for the bottom to hit the hole, lol) I loved every second of fucking his ass.  I thrusted as hard as I could as long as I could watching his face light up in pleasure I was so excited.  As my legs were about to stop working I worked up to his chest and came all over his face like the good boy I am.

2 orgasms down and 3 days left to fill up. ;)

Day 144

Tomorrow is the day!  May 26th I will be free of this device....until May 29th when I will hopefully not be begging to stay out.  All I hope is that I don't just sit in my room at IML jacking off because I'm so happy to have my cock back.  I hope to find a few mouths and asses to let me cock go wild on.  Of course I'll still be looking for cock for my mouth and ass, that never changes locked up or not I'm still a big ol' bottom boy.

But today was good again with chastity.  I can see how people living with their keyholder or partner might have a bit of an easier go at this.  Having my boy friend around for the past few days has made managing my horniness a little easier.  Not having to set up play dates or something and just being able to tie him up and have some fun with him is a little simpler.

Day 143

Recently on Locked'n'Denied I found a posting about someone that was young, I think 18.  He wants to be locked up, to start off I can't imagine being locked that young it would be super intense. But furthermore he had a problem with being locked up at home.

I can certainly understand his fears, when I was home the past couple days.  I was of course a little concerned with my parents noticing something out of the ordinary, or hearing the clink of my PA against my the plastic of my device.  In all reality, I'm probably the only one to hear that little click because I know it's there.  And as for the device showing, well I've talked about that already and it's not really noticeable.  In fact most people just mistake it as a big dick. ;)

So I would just like to quiet all fears that being locked up is something that other people will be aware of because it's simply not the case.  Unless you're wearing a large device like this:

You'll be just fine wearing a device under clothes and unless people know that you're locked up or know what to look for they won't notice anything different.

While yes if you're showering at the gym in an open locker room you might have some explaining to do, but showering at home with your parents or a roommate they'll never know anything unless you want them to.  They just might go through q-tips a little quicker than normal. :)

Day 142

Since it did actually happen on Monday (even if it was only around 1:15 am) I already have my Monday picture. :)

So of course since my boyfriend Dreadfire we've been playing quite a bit and having fun.  But I'm also showing him around the city since he's never really been here before to see it.  For those who know Chicago, we were out doing the usual Sunday afternoon show tunes and one of our friends (Lockerroommke) decided he wanted to come join our charades (I mean who doesn't love show tunes on a Sunday afternoon).  He showed up and we had a nice time visiting (forgetting about my chastity).  

But as we made our way home we were all getting a little horny, as happens with any group of gay men.  When we got back to my place it wasn't too late, but I knew if I didn't get to posting for the day it wasn't going to happen and I was going to pay later.  So I told them to get comfortable and I went to the living room to bang one out.  Ten minutes or less later I walked back into my bedroom and Lockerroommke was in a neoprene singlet, mitts, pup hood and tied to my bed. :) He was getting edged by my boyfriend, so I joined the fun and started playing with his nipples just enjoying the show as he whimpered and barked in his hood.  As he finally came you could tell from his barks he was quit the happy pup. 

After he got all cleaned up it was time for me to go in the neoprene sleepsack and as I squirmed in it the heat of it and the pressure was very nice and with my heard already incased in a rubber hood, blindfold, and gag I was horny as can be.  For those of you who haven't done long term chastity that's hornier than you can imagine!  As my boyfriend let my cock out and started just tapping my balls I could feel myself getting very close and I told him to be careful.  So he shied away from my cock for a while while they both started playing with my nipples and rubbing my head so I could feel the rubber all over.  He went back to my balls for a bit but each time I would get very close very quickly, really showing him and me how close to the edge I always am since I don't get off very often.  So he zipped my cock back up in the sleep sack and they worked on my nipples for a while and then as they were really working them I could feel it happening.  My cock was beginning to pulse and I was cumming....from my nipples!!  (Is there anything that won't make me cum? lol) As I was cumming I could feel that nothing was coming out which was odd, but as I softened a bit it started pulsing again and there came the cum finally seeping out of my cock.   After I was let out of the sleepsack there was cum all inside the device.  Once I finally stood up I looked down and coming out of my cock and device was a nice string of cum apparently my body is just oozing it like it has too much of it or something. 

Day 141

Well today was nothing all that special more of the usual just locked up and feeling it occasionally while I'm walking around and such.  I especially felt it while I was sitting on a bar stool today though.  I wasn't necessarily feeling the device as much as a little pinch on my ball sack (one positive for the boy trainer, it never pinched anything!).  It was never bad but somewhat uncomfortable, but in that way that out at a bar was a little awkward but in a scene would have been really hot, so I just let it pinch a little and get me hard.  :)  I love and hate when the device does things to me to get me hard.

That is just part of the chastity though, while yes the mental torment so little control and physical torment of not being able to cum are very difficult, when the device itself torments you well that's just an added bonus!  Of course some people would really hate this because of the pain issues, but luckily for me pain is (typically) my friend.

The build up for IML is still happening and each day I'm getting closer and closer to being let out, and I'm getting slightly anxious.  Part of me doesn't know what I will do with myself because I have a feeling I'm going to be super overwhelmed by it all, but I'm so ready for it!  No matter what it's going to be a great time being out and cumming all over everything all the time.  Sunday when it goes back on though is going to be a seriously difficult day I can already tell.  And the 220 days left in my year are going to be ....well lets say interesting. :)

Day 140

He's here!!!! And already tied up!! :) And he's already been out of chastity and put back in. Yeah we've been busy, but when I have something to play I'm all over it!

Yeah it's weird I can be very dominant when it involves getting exactly what I want. I just have to remember to not get to the end too quickly to make sure he has fun too. I have never really made him ride the edge for a while which I decided to do this time to really work up the load that was already begging to come out of his balls.

I guess I'm a selfish Dom when it comes down to it. But that's just because I'm a horny fool at this point.

I do have to say I have been on the edge for days now myself. I seriously was rubbing against him at one point and had to reposition myself because I was worried I was going to blow a load.

Pictures to cum soon!

As promised enjoy we sure did!

Day 139

Today was another super busy day so I barely paid any attention to my chastity. It is a little weird that I don't notice it at all until I use the restroom and of course I realize it because I have to. It is really weird but when there are more things to think about it easily slips to the back of my mind.

But I'm very excited to play with Sir since he is back in chastity and I get to taunt him and that thrills me. I rarely get to do that and since he's letting me out I can wait!

Chastity really has been pushing the top out of me :).

Day 138

My oh my so many things to look forward to!  Tomorrow is my last day of work before my vacation (well staycation, but my bf is flying if for my birthday and IML so it's going to be great) and I could not be more ready.

But this means lots of time on my hands....this is never a good thing in chastity.  At least though I will have my bf here to distract me and do devious things to me which will make the whole thing a a little bit easier.

And as I think I've said a few time because I'm a little excited (okay a LOT excited) that I'll be out for 3 days during IML.  I will be chronicling all of my adventures at IML as Sir has informed me that each time that I cum during IML requires a post (and hopefully a couple pictures).  So I will be busy not just being nasty at IML so expect frequent updates.  I'm going to try and keep things up to date throughout the days, but sometimes they might not get up until later or weird times.

Day 137

Today I've super horny and wanting to just be tied up and totally immobilized.  It doesn't matter if anyone even touches me I'm just hoping for a little more restriction and such.  But until then I'm just going to play with my sound for a bit. :)

I've always been intrigued by and wanting to try a prince's wand (a short sound with a branch that goes through a Prince Albert piercing).  So today I decided to try something similar and stuffed my cock with a sound and and taped it in place.  I used my silicone sound so that it would be more comfortable and it was amazing!  I left it in for just over an hour and when I pulled it out out came all of the precum that was stuffed up inside my cock.

Stuffing it in...

 Sealing it in place...

 Locked in place!

Day 136

I can honestly say that today I didn't think about my chastity once until I thought about needing to write this  post.  Of course some people would think that's simply impossible as I have a plastic device locked around my cock and balls, but when it has become an extension of your body like it has become for me the actual feel is quite minimal.  (Especially when I'm busy or distracted.)

I really think this is the way that chastity works, the intensity of it is always there, but it comes and goes.  It definitely comes more than it goes though!

Day 135

So frequently I'm asked and I talk to people about morning wood, but also how my routine has changed.  As I think it is with many people they have typical times during the day when they like to jack off.  Well I had those times usually in the morning when I woke up if I had time before work I would flip on some porn and rub one out.  If it was a particularly rough day at work, I'd come home on lunch and rub a quick one out and then at least once when I got home from work usually a couple once to relax a bit and then another when I was going to bed if I was having trouble getting to sleep.   And if I wasn't working well there would probably be another one in there some time.  And my cock was definitely getting stroked all day if I could.

All of that routine is to say the porn watching part of it hasn't completely stopped.  Mornings when I have time before work and I'm feeling really horny I enjoy flipping on some porn and just enjoying my horniness and hard cock.  Sometimes it's just nice to see fantasize and such, which is so easy when there are blogs like No Safe Word with an awesome video section!!

Day 134

So today was interesting full of lots of different things. This morning was rough I missed a train by like 2 minutes (no seriously I was on the platform 2 minutes after the departure time and it was long gone) and so missed my friends graduation. With everything in my body just going crazy it really got to me, probably more than it needed to but that happens when emotions and hormones are constantly raging. But I moved on from there and had a pretty nice day.

This afternoon I got the chance to have a little pup time which I think is one of the reasons I was able to have a decent day. A friend of mine helped bring out my pup and let me just play around as a pup being care free and happy letting everything melt away. It has been far too long since I've been able to let that happen.

This evening though I got insanely horny! It might have had something to do to the couple scenarios me and my locked up boyfriend were going back and forth about. So while I was relaxing with a raging hard on in my cage I started playing with my balls, massaging, slapping, and stretching them. I was just enjoying them and tweaking a nipple. All of the sudden my cock is throbbing, and out pours a big load of cum...no orgasm no build up or anything. If I didn't know better I would have thought I literally squeezed the cum out of my balls. I don't know if I'm just that sensitive now having been locked up so long or if I just had a wet dream while I was awake, but it was weird. Not pleasurable but not bad, just less cum in my balls.

I know I know, where are the pictures? I was in the living room and my roommate almost caught me with my pants down. Lol

Day 133 part 2

Update: A little booze and all the flood gates open in my mind which let's out all my crazy thought from chastity.

Cock rocks!!!! Not only do I just love cock to begin with, but now I super love cock! Lol I really just want it all the time which is really challenging. Going out for a little bit and getting to touch some other cocks I realized again...cock is awesome.

It really made me miss mine immensely. As much as I'm totally okay with and loving not having my cock available to me some day I really really wish I could just do whatever I wanted and have someone suck me off for an hour like I do others...but that will come with time and I won't be able to wait when it does. ;)

Day 133

It's been another usual day in chastity with little excitement in my day. Work is a really good distraction from thinking about the device encasing my cock and my horniness that only goes away briefly when I'm playing. Otherwise it's always on my brain and always trying to consume me.

Later today though I was again reminded that chastity definitely increases the intensity of my emotions. It was a rough day at work and I just wanted to punch people. Of course everyone at work thought I took all the challenges in stride because I would never let them know differently. But OMG I was just fed up with people and their bullshit. A couple of times I just wanted to yell and say fuck you all I'm outta here cuz I need to get some action so I can be at peace. But no I dealt with it productively and feel much better for it.

Day 132

Today was interesting in a couple different ways. I got to play with a good buddy of mine and had a great time. I was certainly satisfied by the time that I left but I wasn't totally satisfied. I didn't need to get off that aspect of the day was totally taken care of. I needed some interaction with people. Sometimes the only thing that will take my mind off my locked cock is hanging out with friends or in this case a friend I haven't seen in a long while. Even though my chastity came up a couple times it was never taking over my mind.

I find that frequently if left to myself it's all my brain can think about. When I sit at home, like most of today, I can do chores, run errands and keep fairly busy, but unless I can interact with someone else in any way the back of my mind is obsessed with my cock.

I think it's one of the many challenges to chastity, being able to not fixate on your own cock. While it's certainly part of the adventure, because I tried ignoring it and then I just got bitchy. There needs to be a balance of insane horniness and putting that to rest knowing it'll get taken care of, either when I have the overwhelming urge or when Sir thinks it appropriate. And that has worked out quite well for me even though I admit to possibly over indulging a couple times. If I were perfect what would be the fun! ;)

Day 131

Blogger was down so yes this is a day late, but Sir was informed don't you all worry. lol 


Today was good, but I'm quickly reminded of how the summer can make chastity a little interesting.  With the warm weather and the device it can get pretty warm and a little annoying sometimes.  But one of the interesting things about the summer is swimming and going to the beach all locked up.  I rather enjoy it another way to get some sort of sensation around my cock.  I know it sounds odd but swimming through the water I can feel the water moving through the device.  Though when I get out of the water it's always fun to get a few looks.  Either they think I'm real hung or they are confused by the very interesting outline that the device makes.  I can't wait for what the beaches have in store. 

Day 130

Today was nothing all that special but I am incredibly horny again and IML can not come soon enough.  I'm certainly still playing up until IML but I'm trying not to cum any more which is proving to almost be difficult.  I'm just that sensitive...or have that much built up cum.

But it makes me think about those other men who are locked up and go months and sometimes close to a year without orgasm.  Honestly those men are gods....or crazy.  I haven't completely decided. I certainly admire them for their dedication and impressive commitment to chastity, but I know that it's not something I can do. (At least yet.)  I've gone months without an orgasm from playing with my cock and that I can do fairly easily but when it starts to be about a month or two with no orgasm period for me....I start to get a little anxious.  It really wears on me, but it can be done.  I still have a long time to try these things out, maybe see how long after IML it takes for me to break down and give myself an orgasm. ;)

Incase you haven't noticed or I haven't mentioned it, I like challenges. :)

Day 129

I promise not to turn this into a sounding blog, but plan on seeing my new sound for a while I can barely keep it out of my cock.  This morning before work I was feeling really horny and my mind was spinning with everything that I would love to do right then, but of course not all of them were feasible.  I saw my roll of pallet wrap sitting in my closet and I wanted to get myself all wrapped up from head to toe to get used and abused.   Unfortunately alone that doesn't work out to well. 

And then I realized I had to piss and that I can do all by myself.  So as get ready for my shower I laid in the tub and played in my own piss for a little which felt great but I was still super horny. 

My sound! Oh yeah I've got some time for that. I pull out my new sound and throw on some porn and I just go at it stuffing my piss slit with the sound one bead at a time feeling each one stretch it out as it slide down.  I keep stuffing and again I hit a bit of a block and can't get it all the way down.  I just relax and enjoy my stuffed cock.  As my cock softens the tiniest bit I start feeding the sound further down until it's disappeared down my whole the 9 inches of the sound filling up my cock. 

As I'm enjoying the every sensation in my cock I'm again getting so close to cumming but I wanna save it up for IML. ;) I have to turn off the porn and just let the sound plug up my cock.  It feels wonderful and as my body calms down I slowly pull it out loving the feel of every bead slipping out. 

And I'm back to being on the edge constantly.  From the moment I stopped the sounding I've felt like if my device just shakes the right way I'll explode!

Day 128

Nothing too exciting today I don't know how but somehow my cock doesn't feel as sensitive as it was a few days ago, but I think that's a good thing.  It was almost getting to the point that it was not comfortable it was so sensitive.  Feeling like I could cum at the drop of a hat or just walking around was not the best part of chastity so far.  It was just constantly so intense that it was driving me crazy all the time.

Trust me I enjoy being teased but at some point it was almost like I was getting edged for days....yeah fun but that's just well wow!  It will be interesting to see how quickly that comes back again after IML when my cock will get some good attention.

Day 127

I absolutely love people's reaction to chastity. For one I really enjoy when people first find out and there is the little bit of shock and awe that comes with it.

The questions to follow are the best. Especially when it's something about when the last time I jacked off was. When I can say with a straight face and complete honesty that I haven't touched my cock to pleasure myself in 120-some-odd-days it's kind of a proud moment. It's also a bit of a surreal time to think about how long it's really been.

And though it's not really a reaction I find Grindr to be continuously entertaining. Like today when I got the simple message of "Hung?". Normally the answer to expect is number of some sort. I get to just say either not an option or say it doesn't matter because you can't get there anyways. Or if I'm feeling ornery I can send a picture from before chastity and get them a little excited only to say you should have ready blurb and send them a picture all locked up. :)

But any way it happens to expose others to the wonders of chastity is fun especially when they are intrigued and willing to have a little fun with someone who really just wants to make sure they get off and have a grand ol' time

Day 126

Sounding rocks!!!  Okay I know not every will agree with that statement, plenty of people find it very off putting but I love it and had a awesome time with a new one today.  (Thank you stud!!)

I've long admired the silicone sounds made Square Peg at Mr. S.  Just the idea of something flexible instead of the usual metal rods seemed like a ton of fun, and able to hit spots missed by the straight rods.  Plus in chastity probably easier to get in and out and manipulate since when I'm hard it's not going in a perfectly straight line any more.  So when the Beaded Chain sound arrived I dropped everything I was doing stripped naked and got out the lube!

It felt interesting in my hands just so flexible I was almost concerned it was going to be hard to get in...but I'd find a way no matter what. :)  So I lubed it up using one of the little packets of surgilube that shipped with it. With a drop in the tip of my device I was ready to go pushing the sound in was a little difficult all lubed up since it was flexible and squiggling around.  But it only took a few seconds to get it in and once it was in I know why someone decided to make these.  Most sounds are just solid and flat, but with the little beads and bumps I could feel each one going in and out of my cock like I was jerking it off from the inside.  I kept playing with it getting deeper and deeper, though I wasn't able to get the whole thing in (I think because of the chastity device since it kind of compresses the urethra when you get hard) the feeling of taking it in and out was amazing.

It was definitely easier to get in and out and play with when I had two hand so I set up my laptop for a little more video.  With two hands I was really able to feed it down my hole and as it went further and further it felt better and better.  As I began pulling it out and pushing it in going just a bit deeper, all of the sudden I had this twinge...oh shit...I'm going to cum!  That wasn't supposed to happen...but as I pulled the sound our seconds later cum came flowing out of my cock.....ahhhhh! It felt absolutely amazing.  I've played with sounds many times, but never has the sound alone been able to make me cum.  Apparently I just need to hold off a little more often. ;)

Day 125

Well, today has just been one of those days that just sucks.  Not simply because of chastity.  That may have made it worse than it would have been otherwise, but it was just overall horrible.  Yeah right now I'd love to pull out my cock give it a good rub and just feel that awesome pleasure that I'm now going to dream about all night.  But that doesn't get me anywhere with any of the things that happened.  Instead I talked about it to a variety of people, got different opinions, and have somewhere to go.

Does that feel as awesome as blowing a load, no not really, but is it more productive, hell yeah!  While I would love some instant gratification right now I know it will only last a moment and will soon be gone again.  Since jerking off until things resolve, and who knows how long that's gonna be, isn't really an option I'm much more productive.

It's really different not being able to get that rush of pleasure and fun which right now feels like it could make everything all better.  I have realized that it's only all better for a few minutes and yes it's a great distraction it solves nothing and gets me nowhere.  So I'm happy and pissed to be locked up right now.  Difficult to describe though I think I've done a sufficient job I find this frequently when I'm locked up.  Generally it's just not as intense as it is now.

Day 124

I have to say that I love pictures of cock's super hard in chastity trying against all odd to bust their way out of their devices.  So I thought I'd share one with you that I absolutely love since today was a pretty boring day. 

Not only does it just look really hot, but I also love this device.  I honestly think I could still jack off in it if I tried hard enough with most of the cock still exposed but it looks like fun!

Day 123

I'm 1/3 done!!! Honestly sometimes I feel as if I just got in chastity just a few days ago and of course sometimes it feels like it's been forever.  This experience has certainly been an adventure and there is plenty more of it ahead.  I have thoroughly enjoyed every moment of it even in my whiny moments where I can't stand the device and it's driving me crazy or making me into a cranky asshole, it's a learning experience and a challenge to push me.

I think there are many reasons people do chastity for me it's become something not only to give up control and have someone take away my cock from me.  It's been a time to rely on other people and put serious trust into them that they will take care of me through this endeavor.  I have found people who really care about me and having been a great support to me.  I just wanted to say thank you for your support (as evil and sadistic as it may be sometimes) it means a lot.

And for those of you that I don't know who have offered your support through this blog, thank you as well.  Knowing that people enjoy reading it and are gaining something from my experience is a great motivator to keep this blog going.  Sir's cane also helps. ;)

Day 122

Mondays are always fun, but they can be difficult trying to think of something different and exciting to do each week.  Though I know it's really a way to force me to have some fun each week, thank you Sir.  I do try to switch it up so they aren't all exactly the same.  So after little coming to mind from my own creative juices I asked my wonderful boyfriend had a great suggestion.  He always likes to torture my balls.

So he told me to hang whatever I could find from my balls.  I found my boots which always hand well from my balls, but also I decided to turn my favorite butt toy into a ball toy and see how it hung from my balls.  As I swung the boots and dildo from my balls I snapped a few photos, enjoy!

Day 122

So I'll try to keep it brief tonight as I know I tend to ramble quite a bit on here. All of this past week I have had a serious and intense desire to throw someone in a sling tie them in and plow them senseless! Now since my fun little lunch break I haven't felt it as bad, but I'm definitely feeling that in me. I've never really been much of a top. Mostly because I LOVE having something in my hole, but I think I have really missed doing it on the rare occasion that I did or having the option to flip around and turn the tables on a guy.

I think this is also coming from my desire to explore my dominant side a little more. I have been developing some of the skills necessary to create decent scenes over the past year or so, but I haven't had much chance to use them. My reluctance has been from wanting to top as a Dom which I haven't been able to do much since I've decided to try to explore it. But I think just like some Doms have had to get used to me not getting off as the sub I need to realize and accept I can do a good job as a Dom without topping.

Though as IML approaches and I am able to look forward to a 3 day reprieve from my chastity I am hoping to let my top out a little. (In a good flip flop session, I'll always be a sub bottom boy that's never going away. ;) )