Day 330

Since I don't want another punishment I'm posting early today.  It has been a good day but really nothing exciting.  Just lots of work on school stuff.  I'm just not letting it get me bogged down.  This semester will be over shortly though!

Day 329

I've been such a busy boy lately and it's not helping me to remember to post on time! Another late one today and I'm dreading my punishment.  I will be so glad once Saturday is here and all of my school work is essentially over of the semester!  While it's not too much or too crazy it in combination with life I'm getting a little lost.  But that's why it's nice that I have chastity because it kind of makes me come back to me for at least a little bit each day.

Day 328

Some days it's hard to express just how chastity effects me. Partly this is because some days it doesn't really effect me, but obviously as its a part of me it has some impact on me. It's odd to me because perhaps it is actually having a larger impact on me than I realize but since it has been a part of me for so long I no longer think of it as an effect on me instead I find it to just be me. This makes me wonder if I had the device removed if I would continue with my chastity on will power. I highly doubt that would be the case since I couldn't wait to jack off at IML but it could be. I would certainly imagine I would not be as controlled by my cock. Yes I think I and many other people give a lot of power to their cocks and there is nothing wrong with that. (I personally love it when I guy puts a lot of power into his cock when he fucks my hole.) But I hate when I feel like I have to jerk off or I'll go crazy. There is no need for that. Even when I'm super horny or turned on why must I get off or jack off, can't I just enjoy those feelings for what they are?

Day 327

What a long weekend it has been, which would typically drive me crazy because I would be looking for cock the whole time. But I've spent it with family and friends, with horniness always in the back of my mind. But it was nice to just have my chastity there and a part of me but not driving me crazy.

Of course today I got to play with my ass for an hour which was wonderful as is always expected. It's so interesting sometimes how just my fingers can do wonders in my hole, but I have found all the great places to play with and I love it!

Day 326

Another decent day in chastity with not much going on which is nice. I'm definitely very horny but I'm not to worried about it. I'm just don't care that much about the being horny unless it's making me crawl up the wall. Hopefully that won't happen anytime soon but it's oh so likely.

Day 325

I'm a busy boy and apparently a bad one as well. Tonight is another late post. I had a wonderful evening with family and so I was busy and not thinking about my chastity at all. I thought about posting earlier today but didn't because I'm not always the most on top of things.

Perhaps I just really want more spankings because I do enjoy them in my own weird way usually. Or perhaps I have just become so accustomed to my chastity device that it is no longer enough to remind me to post. Either way it's been a good day but chastity was not on my mind.

Day 324

Happy Thanksgiving!

Today has been a wonderful day! Nothing too exciting but it has been wonderful to relax with friends. I've not forgotten about chastity but it hasn't been important to me today. Some days that happens and I won't complain one bit!

Day 323

I know I talk about the days where being in chastity helps me focus today was one of those days. I needed to get up get to work and then get some work done on my apartment and I will attribute some of my success in accomplishing that to my chastity. Had I not been locked up it would have been very easy to lay in bed and jack off, and then jack off again...and maybe a third time before doing anything today. Then in between task I would have at least thought about jacking off if not done it just to make it enjoyable. But instead I stayed focused got things accomplished and had a good day! I realize now I rarely talk about the good days that occur when I don't have sex. Usually I calm them normal but really normal isn't bad and usually it's pretty good.

And I have to say I have the best Sir; he is amazing!

Day 322

Today was pretty typical nothing too out of the ordinary.  I just had work and dealing with the crazy that is going on in my life.  I really am looking forward to some time with my family coming up.  It will be another very nice distraction from my chastity, but really I prefer to think of it as a preoccupation.  I never forget about my chastity and as it really isn't something that controls my life at the time being I don't think it's something for me to get distracted from but something that just isn't as prominent in my consciousness.

But I do have to say I'm horny and want cock....bad!

Day 321

Last night Sir and I got together and it was a ton of fun as always.  I left a much happier boy than I went over which is always good.  I didn't get a punishment for posting late a couple of days ago, but he made sure to let me know that will be coming soon.  After we finished having fun we spoke briefly about what's going to happen after I get out.  But more importantly we talked about why I enjoy chastity.

It's something very challenging to put into words.  It's hard to say there are any singular moments that make chastity an awesome experience.  Yes the orgasms that I have when I'm released from chastity are spectacular, but those in and of themselves do not totally make up for being locked up.  There is something about being constantly restrained and locked up that I enjoy in general.  I do have to say there are some days that absolutely suck, but really there is nothing about those days that probably wouldn't suck unlocked.  Yeah I would have a minor distraction but is that distraction really something I need in my life?  In all honesty I have plenty of other things that distract me.  I don't know if that even really says why I enjoy chastity, but I really do love chastity because it's fun!  All of the things that I have done this year in-between getting out of chastity has been absolutely awesome and I wouldn't trade them for anything!  That is one of the things that definitely has made chastity a wonderful experience.

Day 320

So today was another Sunday funday, I had to play with my hole for an hour and it was simply wonderful again.  No there aren't any photos and I'm sure some of you will be disappointed but it was really a great time for me to just have some fun by myself.  Rarely do I get to just have fun and relax with myself.  Though I do certainly enjoy getting together with other people as I've mentioned before, sometimes it's nice to remember I can have fun with myself just for myself.  Even if I can't get to my cock or cum I can have a great time, though a good wank after I played would have been wonderful!  I don't miss it.

Day 319

Today was nothing too exciting it was spent mostly writing a paper so there was little though about my chastity.  Though during one of my naps I had a fun dream about putting things up my hole.  I'm not really sure where it came from but it was fun.  When I woke up I was so confused but it was nice.

Day 318

Wow, this year is really coming to a close shortly.  It's weird to think that 317 days ago I put on a chastity device and said I'm going to do this for a year.  In many respects it really doesn't feel like that long ago, but of course it's been a long year without my cock.  And it's time like now when things are a little chaotic and I really want it back I'm a little glad I don't have it.  Mostly because I would just be sitting around jerking off all the time ignore the things that need to happen.

Day 317

Another decent day, just relaxing and trying to be productive. I'm starting to get into final papers and the end of the semester very quickly and it's starting to scare me a little bit making me crave some fun. But I'm having a weird problem of not feeling all that sexual. While yes I have my fits of horny rage I think this chastity is also having a bit of an effect on my overall libido but in the opposite way that I expected. So that's a bit odd but I'm working with it and trying to just take it one day at a time.

Day 316

Hmmm...today... nothing too exciting just a normal day for a locked up boy.  My cock is locked under steel and out of my reach.  I have realized I need to go back down to a smaller size ring on this device to keep me suitably locked away, but I'm still debating the PA loop that would really keep me locked down. I simply wonder a little about its effectiveness because the PA could slip up the side of the loop and I would still be able to to kind of get out of it.  I mean it would be awkward and probably painful so it would be another deterrent.  It would definitely be worth it, I just don't want to part with such a comfortable and awesome device.  But perhaps when I fly to see my boyfriend soon I can send it back in since I'll probably put the acrylic back on just so I don't have any airport security issues...again....

Day 315

Grrrr and ahhhh.... Today was very nice because I got to play with my new jock! That was wonderful, it smelled amazing and got me to the edge so quickly! It felt very nice, less like I was having a total orgasm though but I mean cumming is cumming!

But also there is lots of personal stuffing going on that is stressing me out and driving me crazy. I'm surviving but it's definitely going to be a little rough.

Day 314

What a wonderful night I had last night playing in my hole. It just puts me in a wonderful mood and relaxes me like nothing else. And when I get to play around in there I just let go let everything relax and there's that moment when my hands are opening my hole up and I just feel my ass give way and open wide!

I'm also in a better mood because I finally got to sleep well last night. Plus RubberRedBear's jock came in the mail today! I didn't have the time to put it to good use yet, but of course I had to take a whiff as soon as I got the package open. I got so horned up I thought might have been able to cum just sniffing it. But I put it back zipped it up and will bring it out tomorrow to have an awesome time!

Day 313

So today is my first Sunday fun-day and I'm excited yet not. I love playing with my hole obviously, but I'm just so exhausted and with going out last night I certainly wasn't going to wake up before work to play with my ass.

So I know it will feel awesome, but I kind of just don't want to do it...because I'm being lazy. Of course I'll feel better once I do it and once I get my hands and toys in there I won't be able to stop, but it's getting started. I don't want to be the lazy bottom, but I just want someone to fuck me! I don't want to lay there while I get fucked. I just don't want to do the work of the top, trying to relax my body and hole while trying to fuck myself is a difficult task. Maybe that means I need a new toy! :)

Day 312

Today was okay nothing too exciting just a busy day with class. While I'm still a little crazed because of my chastity it's going well.  I got some good feed back from some of my papers which is always a good thing to hear and definitely gets me even more excited about my program.  It helps me reaffirm that I'm in the right spot which I'm sometimes nervous about which is what drives me a little crazy sometimes.  I get anxious and then have no outlet for it so I just let it build up and I need something to let go of it, perhaps a good flogging or spanking.  (I saw a caning demo last night and it got me in the mood, also the reason I forgot to post before midnight.....uh oh!)

Day 311

Blah.... yeah that's how things are going if I'm being completely honest.  Part of it is just my mentally and physically exhausted, but also things are just in a state of being.  I'm simply plugging along on my path for my degree and I'm working when I can trying to take it one day at a time.
I'm not really a fan of that.  I'm not a planner of any sort really, but I like to be able to look around me see what's happening in the world.  I like to know where I am in the world around me but right now that's not really happening.  I'm just existing within myself and I know it's slightly depressing but it's where I'm at.
I've gotten to the point that I really don't think about my chastity as something that exerts any force on me.  It's just a part of me, a part of my being.  It is not inherently good or bad, but simply there.  Sometimes it sucks, sometimes it's fun, but as far as affecting me at this point while it definitely exacerbates some feelings and some situations I would never say it creates them.  In that vain it really just tells me, "Hey you stop ignoring shit and do something about it!"  So it's interesting, but right now I wouldn't have it any other way.

Day 310

Today was decent nothing really exciting, good or bad.  It was just a long day full of activities.  And I'm entirely okay with that. So often something from the day sticks out and just gets me going in either the right or wrong way.  There's just something nice about having a "normal" day.

Day 309

I'm coming to the end of the adventure with this jock strap and while I'm loving playing in my hole every day, it's starting to ask for a rest.  Though Sir isn't going to let it rest for long.  He has decided that I need to play with my ass once a week for the rest of the time I'm locked up.  I couldn't be more grateful for the task; it will be a wonderful way for me to keep myself content.  But I will definitely be looking for fun with others because well I need some cock in my life!

Day 308

Okay so be prepared for some bitchy from me this week.  It's going to be very busy and my spare time from work will be spent filled with chores and other things that I've been putting off while I've been focusing on school.  While it's going to be hard for me to find time to play and stay sane I'll have to find it sometime!  It can be done, but it's going to be my challenge...

Day 307

This has been a busy time for me and it's not been easy but I've pulled through and not gone crazy. I have a few people to thank for that, but it's proof that I can stay sane in chastity.

I know the year isn't over yet but in looking back its been a good year and chastity hasn't really changed much. Sure it's made me a little crazed a few times and helped me into some pretty fowl moods, but that's not all that different than most. This time I just have a really good thing to blame! While I'm definitely looking forward to some alone time with my cock I really have to say when I really think about it I don't want it back for ever. I really crave being locked up (or at least seriously controlled).

And as a quick side note I'm looking into getting a PA fixing ring (http://steelworxx.de/PA-Fixing-114p.html) for the device because even with the small ring I could have easily pulled out of the device. And the idea of it is just hot! Only downside is we would have to send the device back to get it fitted. It would be worth it but it would be a bit sad.

Day 306

What a wonderful weekend I had at MIR. It was filled with friends, fun, and rubber. What more could a boy want? While I'm also ready to relax and just sit down and do nothing that's not tonight. I still have my jock responsibilities and school work to accomplish. So going to be a busy boy from now until forever, but the two month mark is quickly approaching which is very exciting!

Chastity has definitely kept me on edge lately and that's not a bad thing but it's not helping me "roll with the punches" as of late. There's really no reason for that, but it has made me a little more fixated and tense. That makes me think it's not all the chastity but it's certainly not helping.

Day 305

Today was wonderful and completely impromptu! We went to the market for the rubber pup rumpus and enjoyed that. But afterwards we went home talked to Sir and got together for some fun!
I got tied up and blindfolded and toyed with by my boyfriend until Sir arrived at that point I was tied to the bed and plotting happened...

They came back and started playing with my hole and then I stated getting fucked by Sir, until I heard him moaning and realized he was getting fucked too! Later I was turned around and Sir was fucking me until a little bit more my boyfriend was pushing on my hole too and soon they were both in me having lots of fun and I was in heaven! It was amazing!
And I never got out but who cares when I've got two cocks on me!

Day 304

Today was wonderful down at the MIR market with my boyfriend. We had a lot of fun just looking at things and getting a few new pieces, but mostly seeing friends and just enjoying the rubber. Of course I got into a little trouble in the demo area. I met a couple people and somehow ended up in a straight jacket strapped down to a table and tortured. There were various hands on me and a couple different toys, namely a vibrator and car buffer on my chastity which was a very interesting yet awesome experience. It was certainly not going to get me off but the stimulation was nice since my cock rarely gets any at all.

Later tonight there's a party so hopefully I will have lots of stories but those will have to wait until tomorrow!

Day 303

The weekend is about to begin and I can't wait! I still have a ton of stuff to get accomplished tomorrow but I'm feeling a bit better about it. I'm still anxious as all get out but I know that somehow when it comes down to it I'll pull it off and do it well. Yeah it might be a but cocky but I have to believe I can do it or I'm going to FLIP out.

And honestly I don't know how much the chastity is really affecting me. Obviously it's there and doing something but really this is how I've always handled papers, just usually I don't get this stressed. Usually though I don't have the same time constraints. I'll pull an all nighter to write and edit the paper an then re-edit the next day. With work and other things it hasn't quite been able to work like that. So chastity has almost kept me more focused on it because I have the sexual distraction taken out, but that's definitely increased my anxiety because I don't have my usual easy outlets.

Day 302

So yes I work well under pressure, and I'm getting this paper I've been talking about for ages. I'm so glad to be having it done, but the amount of pressure, some self imposed is out of control and driving me crazy!
I'm dealing with it but it's impacting my motivation. Which I know is slightly contradictory from what I just said, but until it hit the last minute mark I just kept saying, "But I don't wanna!" which is really is to do and say shit sucks. Blah blah blah but now it really sucks and I'm going to have give up a lot of sleep before MIR as if i won't give up enough during!

Day 301

I'm a moody moody boy...  Hopefully towards the end of this week once things are over and I can enjoy times with my boyfriend and friends at MIR.  I'm really just hoping that my school work doesn't impact my fun time.  The stress is getting to me and without the time for release I'm just going to have to try to relax buckle down and get to the goal.  I think it will work, but without letting a little steam go that is definitely going to prove to be challenging...