Day 328

Some days it's hard to express just how chastity effects me. Partly this is because some days it doesn't really effect me, but obviously as its a part of me it has some impact on me. It's odd to me because perhaps it is actually having a larger impact on me than I realize but since it has been a part of me for so long I no longer think of it as an effect on me instead I find it to just be me. This makes me wonder if I had the device removed if I would continue with my chastity on will power. I highly doubt that would be the case since I couldn't wait to jack off at IML but it could be. I would certainly imagine I would not be as controlled by my cock. Yes I think I and many other people give a lot of power to their cocks and there is nothing wrong with that. (I personally love it when I guy puts a lot of power into his cock when he fucks my hole.) But I hate when I feel like I have to jerk off or I'll go crazy. There is no need for that. Even when I'm super horny or turned on why must I get off or jack off, can't I just enjoy those feelings for what they are?