Day 63

Today was an interesting day in chastity, not bad, but not really fun.  As I have thought many times chastity is essentially a massive lesson in delayed gratification, which is for me one of the biggest reasons I enjoy it so much.  Of course the control of it all is the biggest draw for me.  But today was really a bit of a struggle, that I wanted play and I wanted it today! Maybe I was being picky in saying that I didn't want to play with myself but realistically I do that about 3-4 times a week.  I'll pull out some clothes pins, tie myself up as best I can, torture my balls a little, and then pull out my toys.  That can get old though.  Today I just wanted something, anything, different.  I tried and tried with no luck so well it turned into a tape gag, jock strap, and vest kind of night.  Really not a bad way to relax I found out, but still not quite wanted (and no I don't want to cum).  So until I can find some help I will do the things that get me by, but when I do get some play the release and the feelings are so great it kind of makes up for it. ;)